Stepped Down

I know I haven't shared this on here before but I am the co-host of a TTC forum on BabyZone.com and have been so for about 7 months now. Well today I took the liberties of stepping down as a host. It's just getting harder and harder to say congratulations to all the wonderful women on there and truly mean it. I know that may seem silly but it's the way it is...it's like wow, they were trying for a whole three weeks....I think you get my picture.

I have been thinking a lot lately that this whole time I have been telling myself and other women it's up to God when we will be blessed with a baby yet I keep doing things that I think will get me pregnant.....none of which have worked. I'm only 22 and I don't want to wrap my life up in trying to have a baby. When we are meant to have one we will be blessed and I know that. Now I'm not saying that I won't try timing stuff when I'm ovulating but I'm done with all the other stuff. At least for now. I want to enjoy the alone time we have right now without little ones running around. However, if we do get pregnant in the next few months we will both be more than ecstatic.

Anyways...that's where I stand today. I am expecting AF any time now. My temps have plummeted so I know she is on her way and I'm okay with that. I have a new job to keep me occupied and Joshua will be leaving in the beginning of May. I keep telling him I'm ready for him to go so I can get the duplex put together but I will miss him. It will only be 42 days but I have been through this before and it was pretty crappy not having him around. I must love him....   ; )