My sister has an angel baby -- Miscarriage Mentioned
About two weeks ago my little sister found out she was expecting her first child. We were all so excited for her - we were also all nervous for her. On Friday she started spotting and early yesterday morning she lost her baby. My heart is broken for her. I don't know what to say to her except how sorry I am and how much I love her. I don't understand what she is going through because I have only been pregnant once and that is where Rory came from. I wish I could tell her it will all be okay and that she will get through this but I know right now she just needs time to heal. She was only 7wks along but a baby is a baby - she lost her baby.
She told me on the phone yesterday that she just needs to get over this and move on and while that's true I don't want her to bottle up her emotions because she will break one day. She got a crib a few days ago from a friend and they are moving today. That crib will now sit in the shed until the day she is pregnant again. My sister is going through one of the things I feared most for the first several months of my pregnancy. I am her older sister - I should be the one to walk her through almost any situation. I know I can't do that this time and I'm hurting for her. My knowledge now goes towards what it's like to be pregnant with all day nausea, heartburn and sleepless nights.
My mother in law told me that she is glad Angel lost the baby now and not further into the pregnancy - we have all said this. She also said that even if Angel gets pregnant again that this loss will always be the hardest on her. She says this because this was her first pregnancy AND her first miscarriage. It's so hard for me to even type that. My MIL said that it's almost better then at she lost the baby in her first pregnancy because she (MIL) knows what it's like to lose a baby after you already have a baby. She said when that happens you already know what you are missing out on. Angel wasn't far enough along to know the gentle (or not so gentle) kicks, punches and rolls or the feeling of hiccups. She hadn't even been able to hear the heartbeat yet. If she hadn't tested she may have never known she was pregnant except for the fact that when she miscarried she said there was a lot of blood and cramping.
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